i officially have seasons one and two of the l word on dvd. excitement abound! who wants to catch up with me??

so my new cell comes today. no more family plan for me. unlimited texting to any carrier, mp3's, sweet camera, silder phone. so if you know me personally, expect me to send you a new number later this evening via text. no more 2 phone business. just one!

went to april's to watch me some UFC. rockin! now i'm all alone :(

snuggles? anyone?

which hairstyle is preferred? long or short? vote!

had the heart to heart with the fella. its over. we're gonna be friends still which is cool, because we always were. i'm available once again.

myspace tells you all a different story than what i'm really feeling. i don't have the heart to tell certain people, certain things. i'm not really the happy gal i'm putting out there. this guy is super nice and i've known him for years, but it's not what i need in life. and what i need in life, is to explore my wonders and curiosities. not play the field, but satiate my desire to explore my sexuality. to define myself. this "not sure" business isn't me.

my waning desire for the opposite sex doesn't have to do with the whole "broken-hearted, man-hating" stuff...its an actual feeling inside. i really feel that way. i'm just in a state of deep and utter confusion and/or denial.

i'm falling in that spiral. reaching up. who's going to grab my hand?

i feel a decreasing attraction the male species. its been gradual for a few years, but has been striking me hardcore. don't get me wrong, i still think they're cute and such but i'm just ot enjoying the things bf's and gf's enjoy together. fahhhk. i feel this incessant need to just be completely out in the open with how i feel nowadays. hmm. then its a whole new dating scene i'm not familiar with! eep.

"something happens, and i'm head over heels. i never find out til i'm head over heels."

i'm talking to said person about how i'm feeling, tonight. and maybe the other person as well.

and i'm cutting off even more of my hair. i'm going after work, so probably 6ish if anyone wants to join me! then we can dabble in coloring! fun fun.

so i'm seeing someone. and while i'm happy, it doesn't feel right. there's someone else on my mind (not my ex! lol) who I'd really love to give a chance. She's pretty much rad, and all that giddy stuff. I think right now, I know what I should be doing...giving someone else a chance, and not jumping into what I just did. Fuck. Help me.